Hello to all of you here :).Firstly i would like to say that is really does hurt me to see so many hurt people out there.As to me when i was going through my abuse i felt as thought it was just the thing that i was going through.I am at this time very down again and find it so hard to talk about what happened to myself as a child by a father who was supposed to love and care for me.I still to this day dont know whats its like to have a father and feel like my childhood has been snatched away from me.

I recall my first experience when i was 7yrs old.I was so scared and to be honest still am,even though i know he cant hurt me but there is so much pain and mainly the questions what always comes up in my head is WHY.WHY ME?I am 34 now but it feels like yesturday,all the emotions are still there,i have had flashbacks which really are scary at times.It effects my relationship with my partner due to that i cannot watch anything remotely sexual on tv,nudity makes me cringe and feels wrong to me.Maybe i am the only one to feel this emotion,can any one here relate to that for me? I need help to try and sort things out in my head.Im very confused and feel completely alone.I did go to a psychologist last year but it was all so hard for me to talk about.I will have to cut short as its hurting me to talk about it.But when i feel a bit happier i will post another one to explain in a bit more detail if thats ok.Dont want to bore any one :(( But i am glad i have founf some where to come if i need to :)) Be happy all of you xx