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segelov


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Hello!


This evening I am scared - I do not know of what or why, same feelings last night, had to keep getting up and checking the doors and windows - kept hearing things.  We got back from the hospital this evening earlier then usual, I then dropped my daughter off at a friends (this is good becasue she is starting to spend time with her friends again.) Now I do not want to go to bed, just in case?? but I could not tell you just in case of what, so here I am writing drivel again.  I seem to spend and innordinate amount of time imagining all sorts of disaster scenarios.  But this feeling of some impending doom with no face is a recurring problem, has been since I was a child I apparently had a morbid sense of foreboding even then, which  gave me nightmares, and was put down to too much reading!


This feeling does not just happen when I am alone - but is far worse when alone.


 



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Lark


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Hi Segelov
It sounds like you are having mini-panic attacks. Is there anyone you can call, a counselling organisation, friend or family, when it happens?
If not I recommend loud music and computer games!
I dont really check my locks anymore but I still get the urge to. That's when I turn my music up loud and play tetris!
I know how much it sucks feeling like something bad is about to happen. For a while I wrote down all my thoughts when the feeling took over and then showed them to my counsellor who helped me rationalise them.
I hope they go away soon.
Thinking of you
Lark


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segelov


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Thanks Lark


No friends, just virtual friends,  and my partner is currently still in deepest Africa, but he will be back this weekend (oh joy!) and with a bit of luck will only have a couple of short trips to do before the seasonal holidays. Unfortunately, no counsellors, and as I have elderly neighbours the load music is also out, so writing and surfing the web are in, trying to do some work related things so that while I cannot sleep at least I may be being productive, and there are always large amounts of emails after an aftenoon away from the office. 


Why is it if I when I am at the office the phone hardly ever rings, and I may get just a few emails, as soon as I get in the next morning after having spent the afternoon/evening at the hospital the answer phone will be full to overflowing and there are a stack of emails all needing answers now? And why do the silent phone calls only happen when I am there and not when I am away? And why ?????


Thanks Lark good to know there is someone awake at this hour - do not often come here at 57 minutes after midnight.


take care


segelov



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Lark


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That's the great thing about international web forums! There's always someone awake!
As I write this it is 10:08 in the morning of wednesday October 20.
I'm not sure if youre behind me or ahead time-wise.
I'm so happy for you that your partner is returning soon! I cant imagine my patner being away from me for long. He goes to visit his parents over christmas but that's for a week tops! I bet you've taken lots of photos when you are together!
It's murphy's law in your workplace! Here's a fun link to murphy's law observations just like your e-mail and phone problem. (if it works!)
http://userpage.chemie.fu-berlin.de/diverse/murphy/murphy_e.html
I hope you feel a little cheered!
Lark


P.S. You'd have to copy and paste the adress because I dont know how to do it the other way!


-- Edited by Lark at 01:20, 2004-10-20

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