Hi Amanda,

I am not sure if I am any help on this one or weather I understand ezactly what you talking about, but here goes.

When I realised I was abused, I did tell some close work mates, I don't know why I did that but it did help, I thought I would get a bad reaction so why I told them I really don't know maybe i was still in shock and needed to feel grounded, not sure.

But the reaction I got was so supportive I was really touched by it. I told a couple of guys that I was not close close to but who I had a high opiion of, both of them there eyes welled up when i told them. I was amazed and they support and understanding was really helpful.

I often write alot and always sit down to write mylife story but find I can never write fast enough or get it out in the write order, and my spelling is so bad I cannot express myself with words becuase I can't spell them. but I write alot in a dairy I have loads from years past.

I have also destroed alot to for the fear of someone reading them.

so I don't really now if I am any help whatsoever but just what I have done, so thought I could shaer it.

But I found it good to write to put down how I feel and write my anger and pain, and sometimes its as though I can leave it there written down, and get on with things again. It always comes back, but at the time it helps.

I love writting here I feel I can say alot, and it really does help me, offload I guess.

Take care

Frog

PS, sorry if my post sound funny tonight I have a stinking cold and not at my best been off work today and slept all day, so I am sorry if I don't make much sense.