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Sallyjack · Veteran Member

Thanks for adding this section

amanda · Experienced Member

Hi Sallyjack

Yes this is very much a taboo subject I have not seen the BBC programme May33rd you talk about but presume it was on ritual abuse and I hope it was done justice.

For nearly 25 years of my life I was brought up under what I know now is called satanic ritual abuse involving sexual physical and emotional abuse by a group of people including my own parents.

It was a daily occurrence but to me was normal although I hated it so much I did not know why or what I could do.

It was only when my first son was born that under desperation I fled but believe me the rules that governed me for so long remain I live in fear that they will find me and that I will have to return.

It is the determination to allow my children a life of love and freedom that keeps me going but the abuse is instilled in me and it is hard to let it go I am working hard in therapy but it has taken a long time to find a therapist who can manage my past

I have shared more about my past these last days then ever before but somehow this forum has given me strength to share.

I will post and reply as I feel I can and I hope I never upset or disgust anyone here because this was my life and maybe now the subject doesn't need to be taboo

I don't know how wide spread this type of abuse is and I am sad for others if they had to endure what I did but I also ashamedly gain some comfort by not being alone not that I wish others to have been hurt

Take care

Amanda

Sallyjack · Veteran Member

Thanks for your reply Amanda.

The programme "May 33rd" was very well done, and I would recommend it to anyone wanting to know more about the subject. It did not go into the details of the abuse itself, but more about the effects.

I have been lucky with my therapist, in that with the support of her supervisor she has been willing to learn more about ritual abuse, and has been able to help me when I started having flashbacks. Like you it is good to know that I am not alone, yet wishing that no one should go through the same experience.

bunny · Newbie

I to watched may 33rd and my counsellor (i have been seeing someone from college) sent me to see a specialist in dissociative disorders and within the last two months it has been confimed that i have DID through severe abuse (not sure about the satanic stuff) Thinks are so up in the air at the moment as i am not sure the specialist is going to keep me on.

Hope we can offer support to each other while we find out!